So Grateful

I am so tired, and so grateful.

These days I only get to sleep about half of the night. Half of my night is spent caring for my newborn daughter. She eats and sleeps in a three hour cycle and either I or my wife need to drag ourselves out of bed to feed her and/or change her diaper before falling back into bed. Even with the sleep deprivation I still feel so lucky to have her.

I am writing this from the den in my house with my little baby girl slowly waking up next to me and my wife catching up on some much needed sleep upstairs. I am struck with how lucky I am to have all of these things. I have an amazing brilliant driven beautiful wife, a beautiful new baby, and a wonderful home.

I am so lucky.

A struggle to finish

Its raining today. I am sitting in the library on campus looking out over the central quad as people hurry bu hunched against the light rain or under the kind of light and flimsy umbrellas that people form Los Angeles use, but would get destroyed in a serious storm. I have 10 minutes to eat my breakfast sandwich and drink my latte before I have to be in class.

The meeting with my business class group from went well and I am once again grateful for being put in the my first ever school group with no slackers or jerks. In some strange coincidence, 4 out of the five group members are fully employed, and the fifth is a mother of two getting ready to re-enter the workforce. We are all very focused on completion.

Working and going to school is a struggle. I work the swing shift and go to school in the late morning, so 3 days a week i am out of the house by 8:00 AM and not back until midnight. It is hard to be home for only 8 hours, of which at least 6 are spent sleeping. It is hard to keep going when i could just give up on school and get my time back. I have to keep my eye on the prize. I so regret not getting my bachelor's degree done the first time I went to college.